Oblivion is Paradise

Inactivity

2006-07-29T00:27:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know, I haven't been around lately. Believe me, I've had more than an earful for it - I'm sorry! Just some things that are pulling me away from where I should be. I'm afraid I had to sell the castle, it was just costing me too much and I had no time to find any money. It went to a good cause, though - the GM of the Obsidian Order bought it for me. I thought it would fit them well and decided to pass it on. I think Naeva is mad at me, but there's not a lot I can do about it. Actually, there will probably be several people mad now that I've put it out here... Perhaps I should continue to stay away. *cough*

Amusement

2006-07-09T17:23:00.000-07:00

Well, my disappearance should be at an end. You'll all see me lurking about again, doing whatever nefarious things I do. And just when you thought I was gone, too...

Necessity

2006-06-22T00:46:00.000-07:00

Forgive my disappearance, things have been somewhat hectic and I have been forced again into the shadows. Not that I dislike them, but not being able to reveal myself to everyone does become taxing at times. I will not disclose what it is I have been doing but rest assured, it is important. Sometimes what I do can be hard for me, but it is necessary. I had some time today to reveal myself to friends, so I caught up with Orchid, Blackflower, and Nadia. Afterward I spent some time catching up with my old clanmate, Salvatore, who was instrumental in my destructive days as a killer. It was good to catch up with my old friend. Also, Naeva joined us for a short time, but something beckoned her away - what I do not know.

I should be able to return to the surface soon, and you will all have to put up with me again.

Cheers.

Indifference

2006-05-23T18:55:00.000-07:00

I suppose I should write something here, but I really have nothing to say to you sychophantic suckups. Go bother someone else for a while.

Rapture

2006-05-17T19:06:00.000-07:00

I've been spending a lot of time lately with a beautiful young woman. She is intelligent, cute, and kind, and has the most dazzling eyes and hair that I have ever laid eyes on. Those eyes are what drew me to her, like a moth to a fire. My interests do not lie just in physical aspects... she has a quality behind those eyes that puzzles and calms me at the same time. I feel the pull to be with her. It's like my prayers have been answered, but in a way that I didn't quite expect.

Seclusion

2006-05-11T18:46:00.000-07:00

I built a throne room in my castle yesterday. It's turning into a very nice (and very empty) home. I love the spaciousness of it, and the decorations that Autumn helped me with. However, I have nobody else to share this huge castle with. It saddens me. The world is a very lonely place without a significant other, and I guess I'm just falling into that spring... thing. I don't know. But I think I definitely need to find myself a girl.

Irony

2006-05-06T11:02:00.001-07:00

I had a tarot reading from Orchid a few days back. The irony of the situation was enough to even give me an inner chuckle. The first card she drew was the Magus, on just a general topic. Apparantly I am to have some sort of vision, revalation, or whatnot. Either that or I should beware someone with a smooth tongue who is on my path. Orchid was inclined to believe the first possibility as being more likely, but I wasn't as sure.

The second topic that I drew a card on was trust. I drew the Tower. Basically it means that along that path and dealing with that trust I will have to endure great pain and suffering to find something better. Orchid, knowing me on a personal basis, mentioned that she anticipated that I would draw that card. Somehow, I did too.

In a haze I returned to my lonely and exiled castle and sank into a trance, concentrating on nothing. I have done this a lot lately.

Apathy

2006-05-03T16:21:00.000-07:00

I wonder if I should even care about anything anymore. My wife has left me. I'm terrified to put myself on the line again, because it really did hurt. But the way I figure it, if I stop caring, I wont have to worry, right?

I don't know, I never know. I don't know who to trust anymore. Autumn seems to genuinely want to be my friend, but I don't think that I can ever be sure. People are sycophantic in nature, and luck (perhaps karma) always seems to throw me those cards. Should I put my neck on the line again?

Amara keeps hugging me. Typically I'm not a touchy feely person (unless you hand me a glass of vodka) and so this is alien to me. I haven't huged anyone since I was married.

And I still carry those damned rings.

Screw it, let's just go with my favorite saying.

Meh.

PS: I erected a castle for myself in Klien yesterday. Come visit me, if you can find it.